I shud whip myself to be .... keep .... and to have ....

positive.

optimistic.

perseverance.

God SOP

tahu ga ungkapan, 'God works in a mysterious way'?

aku percaya banget dari dulu, cuma belom pernah ada wujud nyata dari ke-mis-te-ri-us-an Illahi.. sampe baru-baru ini..

well, actually, I'm still not sure, but I think I'm quite sure, yeaah, you know..

but I know I oughta be careful for any decision I made. kan sekarang uda 23tahun umurnya, musti lebih bijak, lebih dewasa.. :)

by the end of this weekend, I found out a few thing that actually not a new thing for me. Guess people just can't let go that easily. Some remain the same and had no idea of how to shoo it from their life, just to give some 'lil place for a new thing. But at least, they're trying to be honest and not to fool theirselves.. Perhaps that's just another form of what-so-called seek peace with theirselves.

Anyway, rasanya aku harus bersyukur dengan ke-23-tahun umurku ini. Rasanya sekarang semua berjalan slow motion, semua terasa lebih simple walau sebenernya lebih ribet. Jadi bisa ngeliat semua dari segala sisi.. But hell, I might change again tomoro, trust me, don't ever trust a Virgo when it's something about their hearts..

So, wish me luck with tomoro's TOEFL test.. td baru inget kalo besok tes, hihi, maaf..

Wish you a very happy Monday!

Bisous.

Hi there,

I just want to do a quick update here. Recently I've watched "RumaMaeda" (it was my first time going to theatre in my town after quite sometime). It is so far amongst the Indonesian good movie category.. Simply because the good idea they trying to tell us.

You know, I really liked this sentence "Aku mau neliti tentang His-Story, bukan cuma history".

This is so very important I think, to tell us how history affect our life. And to not forgetting about the people who has gone before us because they actually have a big contribution to our own story.

Sadly, the theatre was pretty much empty. I think our people just prefer to watch that "paku kuntilanak" rather than watching a heavy stuff (read:good movie).

Ok then, gotta go back to my routinity which is.. SKRIPSYONG!

D.r.e.a.m.

I dream of you, there,
Sitting on a red cussion.

I crinkle a bit, why,
Are you here in my dream?

You're already gone, by,
The time I open up my eyes.

Then tell me, why,
Were you there in my dream?





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OK, I know it's too much for daily posts two title.. But I just need to put all this words inside my head, or to throw away all the trash. I need more space for new things afterall.

As I already share you, some of my best buddies in Uni just graduated yesterday. I'm H.A.P.P.Y for them, without any "but".. Happy as can be. It's one of their BIG day, the other one will be held tomoro Nov 3rd. And yes, I really wish I could catch them in January. aminn.. Law of attraction right? You are what you think you are..

Oh, that reminds me.. I think I was underestimated myself that people keep hurting me with someway I never imagine they could did that to me. What have I done? Did I treat them unproperly? Did I hurt them so they hurt me back? Did I said something bad that they swore back?

As I reckon, I never did something bad.

I know, I am full with mistakes and am not a perfect person. I know, from you, that I'm an unstable person yet you brought that topic in the most hurting way. I am vulnerable. Just like everyone with blood and flesh, they got one little part that will hurt them when somebody punch them on that point even they've already build a strong defences. Oh YES, I was hurt hearing that from you.. Is it just me who believes that we should talk in the most softest way to someone we care for when it's something bad about them that we want them to know..

Well again, I need to not expect too much.. It keeps hurting me from time to time. Afterall, I should not asked for anything in return when all I want is to be someone who knows how to treat someone else nicely and trying not to hurt them with my doing or being. If they decide to be what they are that hurting me, then, that's life baby.. accept that and embrace it.

I was once lost, so looong ago when I didn't even like myself, I hated me back then. I was close to one person with such negativety, it affect me on seeing things around me. I was more like being hypnotized, or doctrinized to think and see something in a bad way too.. I never trust someone who treat me nicely and bad thoughts was rushed in to my brain about that false interpretation of kindness they actually showered me that time. Those people are the people who cares for me the most, but with such negative lense I put in front of my eyes, I got scared and back off everytime they did that to me.

Those moments are the only moment I convinced myself to put to a recycle bin or if I can, I would type Shift+Del and erase it permanently from my memory, but I couldn't. So I think, the best way to deal with that particular past is by forgiving myself. To embrace it as a mistakes that I brought myself into.

You know how much it still haunts me even until now? Everytime somebody talk to me with high tone, I got scared. Everytime somebody talk to me with bad words, I got scared. I'm still in the process of healing myself. And all I need is to convince myself that there's nothing wrong in me and people has no right to say bad things about me when I actually did nothing bad.

Please, would you say something in a nice way? I wont yell at you if you yell at me, I'm not putting everything in " if you treat me bad I will treat you bad too " phrase.. Except if you hurt my dignity.

Oh, and I already decided not to let myself being a trash can, I am not gonna let people throw trash on me.

I'm leaving those bad things. For good.

Bisous,

Prita.

Kloter-kloter lain..

Hi there,

Just wanna give you some update of what's happen this couple of days..
1. My fellows in communication just got their S.I.Kom tittle yesterday.. 11 friends just flew to the wild world of job seeking, hihi... I wish them luck....
2. I lost my buku bimbingan! Its not me actually. I left it on my dosen's desk when last Monday I checked again, and its gone!!! :'( I hope I'll find it soon..
3. Errr, yeah... I think that's all..

Kisses,

Prita.



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Maturity.

The only thing confuses me the most is the reality. The fact that I see and feel.. Mouth can say 'I love you' at one time, but the other time it shows the opposite. Aren't that odd?

Sometime I asks myself.. Is it really our age reflects our maturity?

I try to keep my mouth from talking too much right now. Trying not to give to many promises, because I couldn't even predict what's gonna happen in the future.

As I always believe, what kills us the most is expectation. Trust me, the less you expecting something and when it actually comes to you later on, you'll be happy to have it.

So, now I can see what maturity really is. To accept people the way they are, and when you think life's not fair, try to live in their shoes..



Bisous,



Prita.





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Januari is on the other block

Gosh, this is already the end of Oktober!!! Next week will be November (of course you silly, you need a calendar?)... And am getting worry about my skripsi... Just can't imagine how hectic November will be!
Tomorrow I will have to get my 'Bab 3' done and approved by my dosen.. :(
All I can do is work my ass real hard, and asking the help of the almighty, the merciful.. God, pleaseeee... Lancarin skripsi aku yaaa... Pweetty pwueseee??
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Precious moment

Just recently me and my dearest bestfriends decided to do a photoshot together. It was started from a simple thoughts, what if in the next year we will be living in a different city? What if we never had any chance to easily say "Hey, do you have any plan for today? Let's meet!" on the phone and meet up in an instant? By that time, Andin already stayed in Jakarta, taking english course and seeking for any job opportunity there.. Me and Rayi still at Semarang, I'm still dealing the thesis thingy, Rayi still on her jobseeking marathon. So, when Andin said that she's going back to Semarang before Ied, we agreed to find a photographer to capture our precious moment together. So that in the future we have a little piece of memory to look at, to be hang on the wall or just simply put it on our desktop wallpaper.

So, here they are.. I present you our photos..

Here's the three of us

Left - Right : Rayi - Me - Andin

There's still plenty of our photos actually. But, I think it'll be nice not to put all of them to my blog. Some people might think that we're just girls who trying to act like a model and we're failed. But hey, that's not the point. I just want to share you the excitement of having this very beautiful photos. We are sooo satisfied with the result, the photographer was just awesome! He's my friend actually.. I think he'll be doing lotsa order after this since many of my friends asking me who's the person that took our pictures..

Bisous,

Prita.

Hi and Bye

at the very exact moment, I got lotsa thing goin' on inside my mind.. Oh gosh, I feel like a corupt computer data.. You can read it, but you can not open it..

But, instead of drowning myself in such a problem i choose to use it as a whip to push myself to the goal am intended to accomplish.

So, how're y'all doing now? Any great news? Happy news?

Oh yeah, I forgot to tell ya.. I'm doing my thesis like hell!!! Only got two months, wait, only one and a half months if I want to make it for January.. So, please.. Wish me a trillion luck..

Cheers,

Prita.